just a dumbass thought but i realized that since most of my interest are the junk i still like since when i was a kid, and for some reason i never really got 2 move on from them for some reason and i also noticed how despite my efforts of attempts of trying to change as a better person somehow sometimes i act myself way too much to the point I ended up embarrassing myself
something i always noticed i'm always fragile, I wanna change myself fully but when acting like that fully changed person to your friends at school i always feel nervous and hesitant
so since the things i like is something i've liked for awhile, it kinda feels like my mentality is still in that past.
Idk if this makes sense but my past (still like it) interest kinda equals to my mentality for some reason thank yu
I'm sorry for the late reply. What you're feeling is valid. It's understandable. It may feel like as though your mentality is still the same as it used to be despite improving yourself, and with the fact you still love or have interest with on things you used to love in the past which makes it feel like your mentality is still in the past, or the same as it used to be. There are times as well it's difficult to act like that changed person you want yourself to be with many personal reasons, and that's okay.
ReplyDeleteI may not have the same experiences as you being honest, but just know that even by that, I'm still here for you to listen in all your troubles, you're not alone and everything you're feeling is valid. It's up for you to take my advice or not. What you're experiencing is something I should never judge. It's hard to improve yourself, and it's easy to feel stressed trying to be the changed person you want yourself to be for other's and it may take patience, but always remember to take small steps just one at a time to avoid overwhelming yourself. It's okay to love the same things you used to love in the past as it doesn't mean your mentality is the same as it used to be, it's okay to love the same past things and still be a changed person, as long as those past interests you still love now wont hinder you to healthily change. And, it's okay to feel nervous and hesitant, don't push yourself too hard just to change, we all have our own ways but one of the ways to take is to support and gently lead yourself as it can help you healthily change as a person for others and understand that it's okay to feel these emotions, and It's okay to be imperfect in the path of improvement because what's more important is you're trying your best, and by supporting with gentle leading of yourself and taking it one small step at a time, it will help you have more courage and healthily make decisions.
You can do this, I believe you can.
I hope whatever I said here makes sense and you get my point, God bless you and the people you love out there.
DeleteGOD BLESS U TOO KATH. I love u so much 4 making all this paragraph for me, it would be really wrong of me to not reply, but i'm so so sorry it took 10 days for me to reply this. What a bad timing for a holiday vacation, but I will try to take your advice, there are things you said that r objectively right and true. most of all; i really appreciate your honesty. just a note that if you do ever get annoyed or pushed by me please say so and have the right to speak about it 2 me cuz i'll gladly hear it. thank u again & i love u habibi
Deleteplatonically duuuh, also really wish u everything is okay @ vacation, tell me if you have something that you really need to say and i'll gladly to listen man, imhere 4 u 2
DeleteYou're welcome bro! And it's okay, totally understand and I get ya!!! Enjoy your days as much as you can as you deserve to enjoy it while it lasts!!!!!
DeleteAnd yes, I'll make sure to be honest with you about my feelings. Ty for being a great friend, I'm here for you always and I love u 2!
But trust me, in all honesty you're a cool dude! Not annoying or pushy at all!!! But if I ever have something that I need to say, I won't be afraid to say it to you :D
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